Serving an Amazing God

Wow! It has been quite some time since I last blogged! So much has been going on in my life. My best friend that came to live with me last semester has moved back to Alabama. She needs much prayer! She is an amazingly blessed girl who is loved by so many. She wasn't planning on going back to Alabama for quite sometime, but she was blessed with the opportunity to raise a child of her own. Now, most people wouldn't exactly call this a blessing; being 19 and single isn't the best situation to be in when pregnant for the first time. However, she serves an amazing God and He is in control of all things. As most people who have been reading my blog know, I look at every situation "good" or "bad" as a blessing because they all teach us and force us to grow. At about four and a half months, she lost the baby. Not only was her life turned upside down once, it was flipped back around only four and half months later. Though it is so hard to say, this too happened for a reason and is a blessing. She is such a strong woman, but still needs prayers daily. Not only has the Lord been working in her life, but mine as well.
I took last semester off of school because of an elbow surgery and since then I have decided to take this semester off of school as well. I have been working at a couple of places and one of them is a physical therapy place. Last time that I wrote anything on here, I was passionate about physical therapy and I was Pre- Physical Therapy. Towards the beginning of the semester, my hours were cut back quite a bit at the PT place. Initially, I was infuriated because there really was no reason for my boss to do so. We had just hired somebody else that wasn't needed at the time, and then they started cutting everybody's hours. I know I know, people only get there hours cut for a reason-like them doing something wrong. But after talking to everybody else that works there, they all agreed that I was not the one that should have gotten so many hours cut. It wasn't until a month or so later wen I began to realize that this was happening for a reason. I was so mad before that I couldn't see that the Lord was working in this situation. I slowly began to lose more and more interest in Physical Therapy and I began to grow a stronger and stronger passion for my other job, childcare. I work at my church three days a week with kids that are under the age of three and then the rest of my free time I babysit. All of the kids that I watch are mainly around the age of one and just turning two. I have always said that I never want to be a teacher or do anything except for Physical Therapy. Ha, it is never a good idea to let God know what your plans in life are! He most certainly changed my heart and what I am passionate about. I still don't really want to teach, but to work with kids that are young and are very impressionable is an amazing experience. I have watched kids grow inside and out and have been with them throughout several weeks when they start talking more and more. There is something amazing about when two kids learn the important but hard task of sharing. When they develop into little people that care for others and understand when they do something that is either good or bad. So, after all that the Lord has been showing me, I have decided to go into Early Childhood Development. Kids are an amazing blessing and I am I am forever grateful that I am able to work with them daily.
Not only has the Lord been showing me knew things as far as what I am going to do in my life, but He has also been showing me things about myself that aren't necessarily good. It isn't fun to be shown your sin and see how it effects every aspect of your life. It isn't fun at all, in fact it hurts, a lot. However, it is so good that I am able to see it. If I weren't able to see my sin, how then would I be able to change it? How then would I be able to see that I serve such a forgiving and amazing God? I am reading this book with some other girls that I know called "Perfecting Ourselves to Death". It is such a good book, but wow is it hard to read! I never really thought of myself as that much of a perfectionist, but I sure am. I recommend this book to anybody. There is most probably a little bit of perfectionist inside all of us. I have been able to see how much it effects relationships and so much more. I have also realized how much I want to be God. I know it sounds so stupid to say, but it's the truth. That is so sinful of me! How could I possibly want to be God? Easy, all of us want to. We want to control everything and have things the way that we want it whether we realize it or not. Sin is a daily struggle that I have to face, but thankfully I serve a forgiving, merciful, just, gracious, and unchanging God that calls me His own. I am so glad that I am serving such and amazing God!